You might be thinking - 'oh, Chelsea is addicted to her baby and that's adorable' and to be fair, I am addicted to Jette. But I'm fessing up to a different addiction. The addiction I have to my damn phone.
Before Jette was born Erin and I talked for hours upon hours about how we wanted to be as parents. I remember I kept saying, I want to be present. And I am present as a parent and in my life - sometimes - when I'm not distracted by my phone.
I have gotten in the habit of looking at my phone at red lights, at work when there is a lapse in my creativity or thinking, when I am at home when I could/should be helping out or engaging or NOVEL idea, when I should be letting my mind be still. My excuses - I have to stay on top of my emails and then I might as well check Facebook, Instagram and snapchat. Seriously, it's ridiculous. And I do it without even thinking about it or realizing I'm doing it. Yeah, problem.
When I'm out with Erin or with friends I notice how people are constantly looking down - how people are often more connected to their phones than to the people they're with - even when they're out to dinner on a date or something, how nobody talks as they wait at the bus stop - or any public place, I notice how people are more interested in snapping a picture or video (because we have to post it) than they are living the moment. When I see it I think it's sad - and then I get bummed out because I know I sometimes (often) do the same thing.
I mean, yes, it is important to me to capture moments. I want to remember things and I think pictures help do that. But man, you know it's a problem when you unconsciously reach for you phone anytime you have a free second. I'm really eager to break this habit. I think I'll save a lot of time, be way more productive in my life and feel a sense of freedom that I don't even realize is gone. Luckily we are headed to Canada tomorrow. We'll be there a week - it'll be a great time to recharge my internal battery, have uninterrupted time with my family (in one of the most beautiful places on the planet) and to be phone free. It'll be nice to not have the excuse to be on my phone for work or whatever. It's time to break this habit. I'll keep you all posted on how confronting this habit goes - not because I assume people are interested - but because it will likely help keep me accountable.
Now updates about Jette. I am starting to call her Poppy again. It feels a little forced but I kinda hope the nickname sticks - at least a little. She met Sherilyn this week - and that was incredibly special for me. Sherilyn Wright is on of the best and most influential people in my life. Jette hasn't slept through the night the last 2 nights - which isn't like her. I know, I know, it was all a matter of time. Having a new born that sleeps through the night is pretty unheard of and up until 2 nights ago she has slept through the night almost every night since she's been home. She still hasn't giggled - but I know that it's coming any day. She has absolutely won me over. She has captured my heart. I love how our relationship has grown and look forward to experiencing the evolution of it as it changes throughout time. This little person has already completely changed my life.
