Erin is a hairstylist - so she is on her feet all day. She often times works 10 hours in a day without a break - sometimes without much time to use the bathroom (which is a pain for pregnant women) - and then comes home and wants to cooks for me, hang out with me, is so loving and kind and then wakes up and does it all again. And I should mention that most days she participants in a cross fit workout before going to work. I don't know how she does it. And I don't know why she continues to choose me - but I'm so glad she does!
Hawaii was great. We relaxed. We laid by the pool. We got in the ocean. We went whale watching. I got super sunburnt (15spf DOES NOT WORK). Erin rocked her baby bump in her bikini and I freaked out because she was the cutest! We shared our hopes and worries about becoming parents. I made a playlist for Poppy. We ate a lot of seafood. We bought Poppy a romper and I about died because it was the cutest thing I'd ever seen. We ran into friends and we ate good food.
And after all of that we still had alone time which felt important to me. My thoughts have been going a mile a minute for the last while and having time to sort through those thoughts was good. Thoughts about all the relationships in my life and how they impact me and how I want to show up in them. I know that being a parent is going to change a lot of them naturally. I thought about how I am currently using my time and how time management seems like it will be more important after Poppy gets here than ever before. I want to have time to pursue my own dreams, to shower Erin with love, to maintain and strengthen other relationships all while being a good mom. I don't buy into the rhetoric that mine and Erin's lives will be put on hold after we become parents. I know my life will change AND that I will still do big things. I will teach Poppy to be as ambitious as she wants to be and to work to accomplish her dreams not by my words alone but by my example too. But who knows - she might get here and all of these thoughts I'm having could go out the window. blah blah blah blah blah haha. I have no idea what I'm talking about. I mean, these days I see her rolling around when I look at Erin's belly and I'm completely smitten and feel like I could just stare all day. What in the world?!
Thank goodness I still have some time to think about all of this stuff. We are 31 weeks along. 9 to go. But 37 weeks is considered full term so she could be here in 6 weeks. I kinda hope she is. I want to meet her already.
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