10 weeks down, 30(ish) to go

This week has been quite spectacular. We heard Poppy's heartbeat (which continues to make me awe struck!) and we have been flooded with love and support from others after making our news public. We have engaged in many conversations where people express their hope, faith and confidence in our ability to raise a person. It's beyond nice to have people around us that believe in us so much - and who will be there to help us along the way. It's no question that we will continue to rely on our village when Poppy is born and we feel lucky and extremely blessed that baby will be fiercely loved and cared for by the people in our lives! What a lucky baby!

Today we start week 11. Erin is starting to feel 'fuller'. Last night as she was getting into bed she had to change her sweatpants into a pair that had a looser waistband. Her nausea has subsided quite a bit and her appetite continues to be incredible! She has extremely vivid dreams - most are hilarious and make absolutely no sense. Last night she dreamt that she cut her legs off because she wanted to be a starfish. Every morning I wait to hear about the ridiculous things that went through her mind while I was sound asleep!

Week 8 vs Week 11

Aside from the pregnancy stuff we wonder what the world will be like when Poppy is old enough to be do things without his/her moms. There was another shooting last night - not too far from our home in Seattle. We were watching the news and we learned that 4 people were killed. I was sad - and my thoughts immediately went to Poppy. I wish the world was more worthy of housing our child - and all the other children that are and that are coming.

We have collectively messed things up. There is far too much fear and hate and entitlement - and way too often we pass the blame to someone else. I have been motivated to do my part in making the world a better place and spreading love and light as often as possible - it's part of my make up. I am more motivated now. I am motivated by my Poppy.  I don't exactly what to do - but I'll do my best!

I hope we can all take responsibility to what's happening in our country and in our communities and do what we can to make a difference. Think of others better. Speak of others better. Treat others better. Learn about someone different that you. Keep an open heart. And do you best at loving and forgiving yourself.