Heartbeat

Today we heard the heartbeat. THE HEARTBEAT. There is a person growing in Erin's belly and it already has a tiny little heart that is beating.  Incredible.

We finally made the social media announcement today. The amount of love and support we've been shown in the last couple hours has been incredible. I've wanted to tell people for awhile now - it's my nature to share things with people - but I was a bit nervous to share this because of fear of judgement from people in my life, particularly people back home. On the other hand the fear of the judgement makes me want to shout it from the rooftops to get it over with. It seems my fear wasn't necessary - it seems fear is never necessary - there has been nothing but love, support and excitement!

After our appointment we went to Starbucks to celebrate - although must of the celebration was done in silence. It seemed we were both stuck in our own thoughts as we exchanged awkward little giggles. It's obvious we were both in shock. Today made everything real. We are having a baby!

This baby is already so deeply loved. This baby has been thought of and planned for for longer than Erin and I have been together. Being a mother is something I have wanted longer than anything in my life - and today I heard my baby's heartbeat. It is something I will never forget.

I loved little Poppy before this morning but my love for little Poppy has grown 100x since hearing that fast thud over and over again.

Cheers.