List of Little Notes

I should absolutely be sleeping but I have put this off long enough. I think I have thought at least once a day since Jette arrived, 'I gotta write on the blog" but then I get to hold her or change her diaper or watch her sleep and then it's time for me to sleep. Or go to work. Or walk the dog - or anything besides writing. I am keeping little notes about what I want to write about - all the things I don't ever want to forget - and my little list of little notes is becoming quite long - so although I should be sleeping, Progressions of Poppy wins.

My notes - Jess came to visit, we had our first Mother's Day and the babe completed her very first art project in preparation, we celebrated Erin's 30th birthday, Jette's feet are too long for her pajamas and she graduated from newborn diapers (which totally unexpectedly made me sad), she is smiling way more often, Jette slept 7.5 hours straight (only once so far, but still), we turned in her passport application, Jette LOVES the bathtub, I love carrying her in the lillebaby, I have read just about everything there is to read about traveling with an infant in preparation for our upcoming trips to Utah and Boston, Harley is doing well with the babe, my fears about bonding with Jette have completely disappeared - and today - Erin breastfed Jette for the first time in public.

I could elaborate on each of these things - and add several more. Like, in the last few days I have become a horrible stroller pusher because I just stare at the baby rather than where I'm going. I've caught several corners. There is something quite annoying and completely captivating about babies. They just suck you in. Jette might be the most intoxicating thing I have ever experienced.

With that being said I gotta admit that it isn't all good all the time. Erin and I are learning to communicate in new ways and there's been a bit of a learning curb with that. I mean, trying to communicate without much sleep while we are both figuring out baby in our own way has had it's challenges. It seems right when we figure out what Jette likes and how she wants to be soothed, etc it changes and she all of a sudden wants something different. Good thing we don't mind the sound of her cry because we've been hearing it much more often. Babe has had some latching problems so breastfeeding hasn't been particularly easy. My admiration for Erin has totally grown watching her be so diligent in doing whatever she can to try to make it easier for them. There are a few other things that have been a bit rough but all things considered, we are doing great! It's been beautiful. We really are the best team.  This transition to parenthood has felt unnaturally natural.

The feelings I feel, Erin too, of gratitude have remained. Our little family continues to be on the receiving end of so much love and kindness. As a result it is easier and much more intuitive to remember to show love and kindness to others these days - perhaps the sun helps a bit - I just feel good. I feel thankful. I feel like my heart could burst!