First Appointment

I promise, I will NOT write everyday even though I might want to. But I have to write today because we had our first appointment at Ballard Midwifery - which is a midwife service through Swedish Hospital. Erin is pretty set on getting our care through a midwife -  I don't care either way - particularly after today's visit! I didn't understand the entire role of a midwife. I thought it was more of a hippie approach - for lack of a better description - but after today I realize that I was wrong and that I am (again) grateful for Erin and that she has taken the time to look into different options. It seems the service they provide is totally our style. Plus, it's 5 minutes away from our house. SCORE (before Erin and I knew when we wanted to get pregnant I had nightmares about her going into labor and us getting stuck in Seattle traffic and having to deliver a baby myself - ridiculous, I know)!

We didn't get any information on little Poppy - today's visit was more of an introduction to the clinic. There were a couple other couples there - all due around the same time as us. It was nice to hear the questions from other people and it was nice to have casual interactions with some of the women who will be providing our care for the next 9 months and beyond. 

Erin and I drove to the appointment together but she went for a run from the doc's office and I went to work. I became a puddle of emotion as I drove away. I have an overwhelming amount of gratitude for the technology that is allowing us to have a family and for my body - Erin's too - that has allowed us and is continuing to allow us to experience life. I have had a recent health scare - which I will get into at some point but for now I will say that the importance of feeling gratitude for what we can do rather than any disappointment for what we can't do has been magnified. I get to be a mom - holy moly!!!! I GET TO ME A MOM! And I get to do it with Erin. 

Guys, go give someone a hug today or make a list of things you're grateful for or look in the mirror and tell every single part of you that it's beautiful.

Spread the things you want the world to be - and eventually the world will be it.